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Saturday, March 21, 2009
HeyHo! I know i havent been posting much either because i am too lazy or i was in camp. Some GOOD news : ALL THE SEC 4s ARE BACK! Applause please .. :)! And a bad news : i am kinda sick and i am feeling very very weak. even now, my eyes are gonna shut close anytime now..but i am still figuring how to make windows XP look like windows 7 which is the latest after vista. BB camp was quite okay except for one night without sleep .. There was a courage walk which was scary and fun at the same time. When walking through the 'jungle' alone, it is kinda somewhat scary because it is so dark and you cannot really see much. My MIND too is very imaginative, so i keep thinking there is ghosts all around, probaly there were, because i thought i saw some along the trees, probaly they are just the primers who HEAVING BREATHING..DAMNwere supposed to be scaring us? when i was walking, i heard that was creepy. Then i look down under the track or sort of, i saw an old man with a poncho and hood..and he was breathing very hard..he said hi to me. but at that time i didnt know what to do ..so i just quickly said " what the " to sort of like make my frightening go down. And i was also wearing a poncho because i was cold..it was i think early in the morning, like 2 am? or smthing like tt. Many boys said it was totally not scary, blah blah, say it is too easy etc. But they are just a bunch of act cool boys..i mean, it doesnt matter if you are scared about such spiritual stuffs, because most people are. I can BET that if i ask most boys if they are alone in a house, and they see a white figure zoom past them, they will be scared out of their wits, no matter how strong, tall, courages they are. IT WELL COULD be your imagination, but still, there must be some scary feeling, thats what nervous system is for, to make you get scared..and i really dunno what nervous system is here for..haha..and accordingly, i scared some of the primers because i was wearing the poncho and the hood, which made me look very scary...i can tell why, because when i look at myself along the shadows, i was even SCARED..haha...and the poncho is green and opaque so at night, it looks black. everytime i look on the left or right, i will be SHOCKED ...my heart will be..going extra fast, because i often see old people, like sort of dead people, so i was veyr scared. Plus, i told myself not to think of horror stuffs, but..the more you do not want to think of something, the more you really think of something, agreed? so i kept thinking of the pontianak which me and zealeria were talking about, about all the myths etc. It made me scared, so i tried to focus in front and not anywhere else, but..i keep hearing crickets which made the place scary, i couldn't help to check whats going on, so i keep looking everywhere which made things very bad... then i kept reading in my mind one verse that i remembered in the bible, that was the verse that my father kept reading in his mind during army when he walked through the cemetries alone..so i thought it would help and it kind of worked because i kept thinking there is a barrier over me, although i was still scared..but well..i was better than before. Finally, i got to go out of the torture chamber. Then i went out and waited for the rest of the other squads, and i went to take a rest lying down..and for your info, we dont have beds etc or mattress, so we basically sleep on the carpark floor sort of, and then use the poncho as a blanket if u are cold, which i was cold, so i did use it..hehe..and then i woke up for awhile, got into a daze and went to rest for antoehr maybe 5 minutes, and then soon we had to fall in..and then later we had supper which was early in the morning, weird huh? supper in the morning..haha..then i took that time to sleep for awhile again because i am an early bird so i cant really not sleep..haha..then we went back to FMSS and then had to clean up the place before we had an early fallout...FINALLY IT IS OVER!!!! i am so happy that i am back at home with all the pillows and orang juice etc, not like in camp where we dun have alot of time to our selves and can only drink water. Now i am at home, 8:48 p.m. and i am about to sleep soon, i think i am going crazy because the whole house seems to be turning, so its damn hard to type stuffs, i dunno whats happening, but i feel like i am being pulled away from the comp..so yeah..gonna go off anytime now. maybe now.hehe ..Ciao! ***
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