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Thursday, March 12, 2009
OKAY PEEPS ..THIS IS HOW IT GOES... TODAY WAS..................." FANTASTICALLY FREAKING i dunno how to put it in " DAY.....
So anyway, did anyone ever just drink raw vinegar? No? Well i haven't and i dunno why i am just posting rubbish..maybe cuz i watch ellen the generous.. rubbish show...but it was still kinda funny in the stupid way.... Does anyone LOVE MADTV? YES? I LOVE IT !! ITS THE BEST FUNNIEST FREAKING PLACE..AHAHAHAHA... okay i was just escaping reality, trying to act like the day was totally super fun and cool. Well, the truth is...it's not. Yesterday night, i slept..i saw the bed near mine totally neat and empty. No one was sleeping on it. why? my sister is gone. Today i woke up, kept thinking she was still here. I thought when i wake up, i will see a girl still sleeping under the blanket on the messy bed. Today it wasnt messy, it was neat, no one on it. It seem really weird. I went to start e learning and of course some games. While waiting for the stuffs to load up, i went to play word challenge which me and my sister have been playing alot together. We usually got above 5,000. Today i got only 2,000. And i didnt even laugh throughout the whole game. Why? my sister is gone.THIS DAY WAS HORRIBLE. I DUNNO WHAT TO DO ALL ALONE..DOING STUFFS ALONE..DOING ALL THE CRAP ALONE..EVEN IF MY SISTER WENT OUT WHEN I WAS DOING MY DAMN WORK, I KNEW SHE WOULD COME BACK AND AT LEAST I WOULD PREPARE SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT AT NIGHT. TODAY ISN'T THE SAME. TODAY WAS GARBAGE BORING. NO ONE TO TALK TO PHYSICALLY. NO ONE TO CRAP WITH. NO ONE. AND THIS IS ONLY THE FIRST DAY UNTIL SATURDAY. NEXT SATURDAY. HOW AM I GONNA PULL THROUGH WHEN IT IS LIFELESS?! MY BABY SISTERgoes to school, my maid go see her friends for awhile. What do i do at home? Wolfteam? AFTER a while i get bored. What DO I DO?! ITS FRIGGIN CRAZY..i am trying to hide EVERYTHING..BUT I JUST CAN'T..IT'S TOUGH. NOW the rest of my family have attended some church event, my maid talking on the phone. the only association i have is the COMPUTER. AND I AIN'T WANT A computer. I WANT MY SISTER. SOMEONE I CAN TALK TO. this day is horribly bad. horrible...i can't imagine IF "touchwood"..one day she leaves us for good... IT's Night time now, and eveything that happened yesterday in the aiport is replaying again in my mind..in the terminal, saying BYE to us. I just hate this...I hate LONELINESS. i can't post any longer.
