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Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Aye aye guys, sorry for not posting for a very very long time. i think it was really really a long time since i posted. But an amazing thing happened yesterday, something really amazing and i find that almost close to a miracle done by God. Just to fill you in a bit, i well lost my BB week, and my maid said maybe she threw it away. Okay, that made me very angry, i mean ...who wont? it is a donation card. And, if u have to report to the police if u lost it. I searched the house since Sunday, prayed since Sunday. but till tuesday, my prayer wasnt answered. I was of course depressed. on wednesday, when walking home, i thought, " God, please help me find my BB week, please..i wish that if i go back now, it will be there" No reply came. Then all of a sudden, something talked to me..it wasnt audible, but it came in a thought. the thought was..have you not been trusting God, not having faith in him? then i thought, actually it is true, i have not trust Him, i kept worrying even after i prayed although i should have left the matter to Him. So i replied in my mind, saying : But..God....its not that i do not want to trust you. its just that i am too worried...too nervous...
When i reached home, my maid said " JACOB! i found your BB week in between some books" ... That was the first joy experience and i started thanking God like nobody business. This wasnt that significant yet. Then i was reflecting about this today, and i remebered the Sunday's service sermon..it was about faith. Saying that Faith is important..it is very important to god. So i realised that actually God was sort of testing my faith in him, maybe telling me that the sermon applies hard into my life. Many times my parents say that all the sermon comes in handy during difficult times, but losing my BB week, i didnt count it as a difficult time. Last sunday, honestly,i heard the topic and took down some notes, and went to sleep as i was very tired and i didnt understand what the pastor was talking about. i though the sermon wasnt that important..i though probaly i could just skip listening this sermon and everything will still be normal..But, no , the sermon was indeed important. Isnt this a miracle in disguise? i think it is :)..hehe
but since i havent been posting..i will tell you what happened today.. Today we had to rush our science project as we had to hand it up today! thats crazy! and so, our project was really screwed up. The DNA couldnt turn, everything was breaking apart. Mr firhad said everyone had to hand up their projects regardless of anything, and marks will just be given according to the relevance and completeness..i was on the verge of just giving up, nervous, scared..anxiety! so it was our turn, we went to show him our project and he asked us to redo the sugar prosphate backbone, which we agreed..he said we could hand it up tmr!!! yay..but we will be penalised for about 2 or 1 marks. But that was okay, as..we completed the project afterschool which i thought we wont because usually it wont take that fast to re create that area ..we used pure wire without much design, but..well, the DNA model could at least form a double helix, so that was good already. special thanks to Ern jie who helped us throughout..although she should go home at 3..she stayed on to help us :). she is a pro helper man..helped us buy the logistics, gave us ideas...thanks ..she is god sent! so actually, somewhat during 11.00 ..i was very pissed at that moment, because i cant bear the fact that no one is actually doing their project except for me and james, only today, everyone started rushing here and there. I scolded feng an a little, i think i went overboard, so i apologised later when my mood went back to normal. Then i asked verine where she was when we were doing our project..she said " crying???!!!" and gave the DUH! look..like as if it is only right of her to cry because she is troubled. yeah, she is troubled but we are more troubled right? i mean, she isnt doing a thing! so why the heck should she be troubled at all?! Yesterday, i went to clementi at 7 15 right after dinner to go find a nice box, and help to buy other logistic and help my sis buy oreo crush from sweet talk. i saw two pretty nice box, but one is cheap, the other is expensive, the expensive one was so beautiful, totally clear and nice. The other was blurry and had scratches all over it . Then i look at the expensive one, i didnt have enough money to buy it..so i took the cheaper one, and went to the counter..she said ..u sure u want this? u sure?! i think u better double check.. thank god she said that. So i quickly bought the logistics and bubbletea and ran home immediately. then i took more money and went back to buy the expensive boxes. Woah, altogether, i took about 1 and a half hour. that was very tiring, but well, it paid off. If i didnt buy those boxes, gosh, we will be using that ugly cardboard box, if u havent seen it. But yeah, so now everything is settled, feeling very relax and shiok..so i am typing everything out :) ..
oh yeah, to my cell group leader John guk, lucky i didnt have lunch with him, because today our group had to stay back and finish our project. So if i had lunch with him, then probaly i will have no time to complete the project and now i may just be frustrated, stressed. So thank god again
I really need to thank god for tiding me through this crazy week..it has been a long one
